The state of tiredness
Tired, aren’t you?” they said. You say you are tired. Tired of the fact that you’re tired? Tiredness is a constant state. Most of us feel tired these days. We’ve reached a point where we cannot show our outrage anymore. Burnout has crept up on us, and like victims of some insidious military weapon, all that’s left is the roar in our ears as we pace up and down.
I was there too. There were days when I could not wake up. The relentless anxiety and depressive thoughts that were constantly whispering in my mind, too low for others to hear but just loud enough to keep sleeping at night and not loud enough to drown an agony. Every day we wake up to a new and exciting to-do list. Believe me when I say each one is just as important, if not more so than the last. “How will I ever get them all done? It’s getting harder to keep up with the expectations people have of me.”
Sometimes, you think about what’s wrong with the world and why everyone doesn’t see things the same way as you. You begin reasoning your thoughts and trying to decide whether you’re the problem, or the world is the problem. The latter may be true in some cases, but more often than not, it’s just that we need a more positive mindset to get through our day. We need to shake off depression.
I’ve been there too. It’s harder to want to do things because you’re thinking: “If I don’t do it this way, then this thing might not happen, and I know what needs to be done to make it happen.” It’s easy to get wrapped up in the way you want things done, but the reality is that the way you want things done is not always how things work. Moreover, some of us are already triggered by simple situations that we’re constantly saying, “I shouldn’t have said that” or something else dense.
Sometimes when we’re tired, we feel like we’re on the verge of breaking down in tears. It’s not because we’re sad but because everything seems so far away from us and our life just feels like one big downward spiral. When we think about all of the things that could go wrong, or all of the things that have gone wrong in the past, it makes us feel like we are a failure. People have a tendency to assume that everyone else has everything figured out. People assume life is easier for them when in reality, everyone deals with their own problems and difficulties.
This is why sometimes, when things don’t go your way, or you see someone else get ahead of you – you instantly go into “If only” mode and start telling yourself, “If only I’ve done this in the beginning, my life would be different now.” Then you sit for hours feeling sorry for yourself because all you want to do is run back in time and change everything.
We all make mistakes and get tired every day; it happens to everyone. Your best bet is to realize that life is unfair and not let those negative thoughts get to you too much.