January 29, 2023

When I graduated from Senior High School, I had my whole life planned. I planned on going to college to study Accountancy. After that, I’ll take the board exams then continue it to become a CPA-lawyer. Then I’ll travel the world while helping my parents. Maybe have my own family by 30 then travel again, and finally, you know, die. That is how I want my life to be.
However, it seems like life has other plans. I shifted from Bachelor of Accountancy to Bachelor of Science in Accounting Information System – which is a non-board course. Why? I actually did not reach my quota. I cried.
That’s not all.
During my mid-college life, a really nasty pandemic struck. Well, so much for a well-planned life. Then behold, online classes were implemented. Oh boy! Don’t get me started on this one because it gave me fear of getting messages. Trust me, I literally deactivated my social media accounts multiple times.
Now that I’m in my last year in college, I almost did not enroll because the company that gives me scholarship is having difficulties due to the pandemic. Apparently, I don’t have my scholarship now.
You might be wondering why I am ranting while there are a lot of people out there who have a much worse life than me. It’s because of these experiences that I learned a lot of things.
It’s okay for your plans to not work out. Things happen. However, it’s our responsibility to move on or to keep on crying and regretting.
Always have a plan B. Like I said, life always has other plans. So we need to have plan B, just in case. If that doesn’t work out. Plan for plan C until it works.
Learn to say no. I always say yes and this is my weakness. But one thing that I learned is that, saying no is equal to a healthy mental state. If you feel like you are trading your mental health on something, just say no – like a hard pass! Trust me on this one.
If you are not happy, say goodbye. Just get out and move away. There is no point in staying. If they can’t appreciate what you are doing, better leave. You deserve better.
If you are not okay and you feel like giving up, seek help. It can be your friend, a family member, a stranger and even a thing like books. Or you can always seek professional help. What we are going through is not easy. We lack face to face interaction that we have before. Your mental health is important.
As I approach graduation, I don’t really know what will happen to me. There are a lot of things that are bothering me. What motivates me now is literally the money that my parents spent on my last term. However, when I look back to everything, it gives me hope that I am still here. There are many times that I feel like giving up but I remember that I am a fighter. I can get through this. We can get through with this.
Whoever reads this one, I wish that it will reach you. It doesn’t matter that at the end of the pandemic, you’ll have a new ability/talent learned. What matters is that you survive and you matter. Reach out. You can do it! We can do it! (PYAR-ZHAN A. LITUSQUEN)